Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in…
–Leonard Cohen – Anthem
That’s how the light gets in. When we are damaged, broken people (and everyone, yes all of us, have a measure of dysfunction, however small or large) there is only one way out into the light, and it’s through the wound itself. It seems strange to us at first, because pain is hard. Pain hurts. Who wants to go there, to explore those deepest, darkest recesses of our psyche, when it all hurts so much?
But without those broken places, without the cracks in the finish, we would never find the light, it would never be able to shine through. Those cracks make us who we are. Every bit of pain and hurt and sorrow, loss, regret, those heart-breaking moments in our lives that define us in ways that will change us forever–those are necessary, and in the end, they create the most beautiful things in our world, if we let them.
I have a soft spot in my heart for my most damaged characters. I think the most broken character I’ve ever written is Lindsey from Hussy (originally titled Falling Down). She’s a girl who has been molded by circumstance, but she’s no shy wallflower or shrinking violet. Lindsey embraces her wounds–she lives them, like returning to the pain of a missing phantom limb. She knows she’s seeking something from her sorrow–she’s just not sure what that is.
Of course, most of us end up losing our way in our broken places for a while. We fall into addiction, destructive patterns of behavior. We hurt ourselves, like we have been hurt, repeating the process again and again, becoming our own unwitting perpetrator. Lindsey is no different. She loses herself in the process of trying to find herself, and as with most of us, it’s through a connection to someone else who can love us through it all she manages to find her own redemption.
And it takes a while to get there–but there is no way to get there without those cracks in the surface. That’s where the air and the light get in. Where we can breathe again, see again, love again. Be again. This is the true transformation of the soul, and for that alone, I love my little Lindsey, both before and after her change in behavior/action… and in feeling too.
Being loved can change everything.
If you’re interested in Lindsey’s broken story and haven’t read it yet, Hussy is available on Amazon. I’ve been looking for readers willing to give an honest review of her story in exchange for a free copy, so if you want one, just leave your email in the comments section and let me know what format you’d like, and I’ll send you one!
I’d love to hear what you think of Lindsey and her journey toward the light.
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